It's a lot easier to be stuck than you'd think. Getting unstuck, that's hard. Knowing you are stuck, even harder. I was stuck. Stuck in fear. Stuck in the past. I'm not stuck anymore. I can feel my mind wandering down a different creative path. The Albatross Project is nearing it's end. I have a… Continue reading Stuck
A woman hanging from a rope inside a bubble.
Picture of woman sitting down with her head in her hands, covered with ice.
Kintsugi, the Japanese art of repairing cracked or broken pottery. Where the broken pieces are joined with gold. Wear you scars with pride and rejoice, for you have healed, and become stronger and more beautiful than before. Celebrate your unique history, for without it, you cannot be what you are to become.
I thought I was crazy. My mind didn't work in the way it always had. Instead of firing quickly, it had almost ground to a halt. Cerebral thought was like walking through treacle. Everything was foggy, a record stuck on a scratch, a computer powering down. The most basic of tasks required my full attention, making a cup of tea, driving. I couldn't make a decision, closed questions only please and I couldn't always answer those. I was a computer which didn't compute.
But below this robotic exterior, something was screaming with all its might. I couldn't heat it, but I could feel it. It was small and far away, but it was powerful.
We are all damaged in some way. No one journeys life unscathed. This damage shows itself differently for all of us, for we are all unique in our struggles and how we wear them. Be kind.
The voices both inside us and outside us can be extremely damaging. The negative comments and self talk become part of us and eat away at our self belief and self image. With anxiety the voices are loud and continuous. Always negative, fearful and self depreciating. You are the thoughts you have, and the voices you listen to.
One day you will be ready to start putting yourself back together. It’s hard work, it takes time, and the only person that can do it is you. It’s a process, and you will be different than you were before. You will be magnificent.