Boxed in

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The walls are closing in. The air is being sucked out.  I can’t move. I can’t breathe.

Crushed and suffocated.

Construction:

Image shot on Nikon D700, 50mm lens, f5.6, s/s50, ISO400, natural light from the front. I wanted to shoot this portrait in situ but I moved house before I could get it done.  Without the space I had wanted to shoot the image in, I used my garage at my new house to provide a dark background to shoot the subject and box. I then composited it onto an old image of my favourite room to shoot in. Textures and curve adjustments added afterwards. I’m really missing the room I used to shoot in my old house, I haven’t found a replacement yet.

 

Locked away

Locked away“Let me tell you a story of a little girl, who experienced so much pain that she could bare no more. She locked away her heart in a metal cage, deep in a dark dungeon furthest away from everywhere and everything. However, a person cannot function without a heart , so she crafted a new one, from the people and things around her. She looked outside herself and created a false one: one that would serve to keep away the pain. As she built her new heart, she slowly forgot about her old one, her real one, and lost it forever.”

Alone and forgotten

Most of us are guilty of hiding our true selves and creating false selves. This duplicity of identity protects ourselves from past pain and trauma and usually begins in childhood. This image came from a counselling session that I had, looking into childhood to see where the wobbly blocks began. Using visualisation, she told me to find myself as a little girl and do nothing but be present. This is what I saw. It was a powerful image and opened the door to so much self discovery and healing. It was a difficult and long journey though, one I think I’ll be on forever.

Construction:

Image shot on Nikon D700, 50mm lens, f5.6, s/s50, ISO500, window light from right. Composite made of blank background shots stitches together in Photoshop to expand the frame of my little 50mm lens, me and a galvanised landscaping cage. I added a costume as it was important to represent the subject differently in this image, as a child, not an adult.